Feeling like a Fraud.

Feeling like a Fraud.
  I doubt my writing ability almost every day and the stack of rejection letters I have for my book, certainly doesn’t help matters, but then again, I also tend to doubt myself about everything.  I have never really been a person who is overly confident and almost always, I assume people are going to ...

The Internet is Rude.

08. February 2019 Gina DeNicola 4
The Internet is Rude.
When I wrote last week’s post, I was scared. I was scared when I put the words down on paper.  I was scared when I hit the word “Publish” on my WordPress page.  I was scared when I sent a preview paragraph to my sister, who already knew all the information in that paragraph. I ...

If We Were Having Coffee – Part 5

If We Were Having Coffee – Part 5
If we were having coffee, this time we might have to FaceTime or Skype each other in our own cozy coffee shops because I’ve been on the road for so long. So, I’d settle in some random city coffee place and order a latte in a mug because I planned on being here for a ...

2018 – A year in Review

20. December 2018 Gina DeNicola 0
2018 – A year in Review
This time of year I always get reflective.  I have long ago abandoned the idea of Resolutions and instead, I usually take a few minutes and flip through the photos on my phone. I am always amazed at all the things that have happened in just one year and this year was no different.  I ...

Can It Get Worse?

Can It Get Worse?
As sat on the bus drinking my coffee, in freezing cold Canada, I was desperately looked around for a box of tissues.  It seems all the traveling, time changes, and new schedules has resulted in a head cold.  Having a cold on a tour is the absolute worst.  There is no sleeping in because you ...

I was Queen for 30 hours or so!

17. September 2018 Gina DeNicola 1
I was Queen for 30 hours or so!
I wasn’t going to post about my very very long flight from Los Angeles to Sydney in fairness to everyone else who was flying the same route, but to be honest – I don’t know how I couldn’t.  You see I was flying First Class from Nashville to Perth on three flights. The first flight was ...

Day 2 of Detox and Rebooting

Day 2 of Detox and Rebooting
So, yesterday I started a 40-day detox.  Initially my goal, I’m not gonna lie, was to lose a few pounds, but as I was preparing last week, I decided I was going to treat these 40 days as more of a reboot for not only my body but for my mind as well.  Surprisingly yesterday ...

If We Were Having Coffee – Part Four

13. December 2017 Gina DeNicola 0
If We Were Having Coffee – Part Four
As I sat in a cold production office somewhere in Canada, I realized it had been awhile since we’ve sat and had coffee. I looked back at my previous “If We Were Having Coffee – Part Two” and realized it had been almost six months. So much has changed in that six months so I ...

Was that Sexual Harassment?

Was that Sexual Harassment?
  The year was 1991. I was 24 years old and four months pregnant, but I wasn’t showing. I was three years into an abusive marriage, not physical, but mental abuse. I had been laid off from my previous job, and I needed this job. It was my first real job as a Paralegal.  It ...

Blueberry Lemon Vodka Trees

Blueberry Lemon Vodka Trees
My husband doesn’t really drink.  If we are out he will occasionally have a gin and tonic, but that is the rarity. I watch what I drink mostly because my father was an alcoholic, but will usually order a vodka tonic if we are eating out. Usually you won’t find alcohol in our house, with ...

Stuck in the Space Between

Stuck in the Space Between
As I sat on my balcony with a big cup of coffee in one of my oldest and most favorite mugs, on one of Nashville’s most perfect mornings, I looked out over the downtown and the amphitheater. The mug was from my single mom days, and it is an actual miracle that it has survived ...

James Joseph DeNicola 1944 – 2017

James Joseph DeNicola 1944 – 2017
My biological father died today.  I have been searching around this room trying to locate my feelings as if they were stashed under this pile of books on my desk.  The truth is I don’t know how to feel, which in turn keeps me searching.  I have only seen Jimmy three or four times since ...

Courage and Fear

Courage and Fear
Courage and fear. Two words that go hand in hand and elicit the exact same response from me. My heart starts to race, I break out into a cold sweat, I have trouble breathing and I can’t look people directly in the eye.  That is exactly how I felt when I told the closest people ...

Brave Part Two

25. September 2016 Gina DeNicola 0
Brave Part Two
I am brave damn it!  After all, I have two bracelets that say I am, I have people tell me I am all the time, I have kids who believe me to be brave, but the morning I had to climb onto the shuttle bus I wasn’t so sure that was the case. However, I climbed ...

Comparison is the thief of all happiness

Comparison is the thief of all happiness
  My morning ritual is pretty much the same when I’m home, the only thing that will vary is whether or not the bed gets made.  I wake up, brush my teeth, wash my face, get dressed, and make coffee.  Once the coffee is finished, depending on the weather, I will either sit on the ...

I Write Because

I Write Because
I write because sometimes I have things to say, and I can’t get someone to sit and listen to me spew 700 words at their face. They know I will barely stop to breathe, let alone let them get a word in edgewise.  Usually, if I get interrupted I lose my train of thought, and ...

304 Days Since I’ve Had A Paying Job

304 Days Since I’ve Had A Paying Job
It has been just about 304 days since I watched the last Marvel Experience dome get packed into a truck, packed our little Fiat up for the last time (or so I thought) and my husband and I drove back to Nashville.  I was grateful to be off my feet because this final run of ...

If We Were Having Coffee.

If We Were Having Coffee.
If we were having Coffee. If we were having coffee, we would meet up at my favorite place, order our coffees and sit down at one of the long community tables.  I would look into your eyes, take a deep breath and hold back the tears.  You’d say, “talk to me” because you are my ...

Who Am I?

Who Am I?
  All these quizzes on Facebook make me a little nutty.  I have been as guilty as the next when it comes to taking quizzes like “what spice are you” or “what Disney character are you” and “what do your fingers say about you”.  I wonder if Donald Trump took that last one.  But this ...

Those Small Fleeting Moments

08. February 2016 Gina DeNicola 0
Those Small Fleeting Moments
Probably the worst show for me to watch is called “Time of Death” it documents people, in the final stages of their lives and how they and their family cope and plan for the inevitable. See, I’ve had this lump on my ankle the size of a golf ball and it has been there for ...

I Will Be Fine

01. February 2016 Gina DeNicola 0
I Will Be Fine
As I sat in the Panera Bread in Saratoga Springs waiting for my husband to finish his meeting, I realized I was going to be just fine. Perhaps it was the first cup of hot coffee I’ve had in weeks and the comfort that brings or maybe it was Adele singing in my ears, maybe ...

Where In The World is Jerry

Where In The World is Jerry
It was 3 o’clock in the morning, and I rolled over in bed to find Rob gone. I rolled over the other way to find all the lights on downstairs. I pulled out my earplugs and walked downstairs to find out why every light in the house was on; Rob was walking around with a ...

The Happy Cappuccino.

The Happy Cappuccino.
We took a job that required relocating to New York only thing was we had no plans to actually 100% relocate. We had every intention of keeping our Nashville apartment and bouncing back and forth between both places. After all, how could I be expected to leave my chickens behind in Nashville? To begin with, ...