Blueberry Lemon Vodka Trees

Blueberry Lemon Vodka Trees
My husband doesn’t really drink.  If we are out he will occasionally have a gin and tonic, but that is the rarity. I watch what I drink mostly because my father was an alcoholic, but will usually order a vodka tonic if we are eating out. Usually you won’t find alcohol in our house, with ...

Stuck in the Space Between

Stuck in the Space Between
As I sat on my balcony with a big cup of coffee in one of my oldest and most favorite mugs, on one of Nashville’s most perfect mornings, I looked out over the downtown and the amphitheater. The mug was from my single mom days, and it is an actual miracle that it has survived ...

Holding Your Breath

Holding Your Breath
As I stepped onto the pier, the air seemed cleaner, my head felt clearer somehow, and I sat on what felt like the edge of the world, I just took a deep breath. Things in my little corner of the world were moving along smoothly. We are here in Chicago for a couple of weeks ...

The Evolution of Gina’s Wallet

The Evolution of Gina’s Wallet
  First, it was my 50 Coats for a 50th Birthday campaign.  Then it was several couples that needed help with giving kids a better life by opening their homes and giving them a family.  Most recently it is a kids hockey team trying to make it to Nationals from Washington state to Florida. Giving ...

James Joseph DeNicola 1944 – 2017

James Joseph DeNicola 1944 – 2017
My biological father died today.  I have been searching around this room trying to locate my feelings as if they were stashed under this pile of books on my desk.  The truth is I don’t know how to feel, which in turn keeps me searching.  I have only seen Jimmy three or four times since ...

The E Train, Kindness and Scams

24. February 2017 Gina DeNicola 1
The E Train, Kindness and Scams
  If you know me well, you know that I use to be a single mom. A struggling single mom from the time my kids were three and four until they were about 13 and 14. Because fish sticks were cheaper in bulk, we ate a lot of them.  Because Cheerios were also cheaper in ...

We’re Going to be OK.

We’re Going to be OK.
  It was 10:45 am on Inauguration Eve, I was sitting on my couch all alone in Nashville, the confirmation hearings were playing in the background, and I looked up to see an airplane flying in the sky on the upper right-hand corner of my tv.  He was headed to Washington, in a plane that ...

Courage and Fear

Courage and Fear
Courage and fear. Two words that go hand in hand and elicit the exact same response from me. My heart starts to race, I break out into a cold sweat, I have trouble breathing and I can’t look people directly in the eye.  That is exactly how I felt when I told the closest people ...

She came, she cared, she left.

She came, she cared, she left.
I heard a quote once from an older lady who was talking about how she wanted people to remember her when she was gone.  She said this…She came, she cared, she left. I thought to myself that’s how I want people to remember me and it got me thinking about 2016, what kind of impact ...

Country Mouse vs. City Mouse

Country Mouse vs. City Mouse
As I sat in a Starbucks in Brooklyn, NY, I looked around.  It was pouring outside, and it seems people have chosen to camp out there.  The amount of people in that little Starbucks was overwhelming.  There were people from different countries, there were tourists with their maps, there was what seemed to be very ...

Brave Part Two

25. September 2016 Gina DeNicola 0
Brave Part Two
I am brave damn it!  After all, I have two bracelets that say I am, I have people tell me I am all the time, I have kids who believe me to be brave, but the morning I had to climb onto the shuttle bus I wasn’t so sure that was the case. However, I climbed ...

Brave Part One

22. September 2016 Gina DeNicola 7
Brave Part One
As I sat in the airport waiting for my connecting flight, I leaned against the wall and closed my eyes. Mexico is my final destination with my baby sister. I took a deep breath because that’s what they tell you to do to relax. I was sitting right next to a pizza place, and all ...

New Words.

02. September 2016 Gina DeNicola 6
New Words.
A few months ago I finally broke down and told my mother I didn’t believe in God.  Her, almost predictable answer was, “Yes you do Gina.”  But I don’t, I’m not sure I even believe in the power of prayer.  Here’s why. Yesterday my baby sister was diagnosed with breast cancer. Last week my mother ...

How Did I Get Here?

How Did I Get Here?
As I sat on the balcony of my apartment looking at the downtown skyline and the sunrise, I realized it had been almost two years to the day when I closed the doors to my little bakery.  In those days that I owned the bakery, I was up hours before the sun even peeked its ...

Pots, Lids and Life

Pots, Lids and Life
I woke up this morning all alone in the hotel, and I realized I was living a life most people would envy.  I was at Mohegan Sun in Connecticut because my husband went back to work touring. Because I have grown kids, I can pick up at a moments notice and follow him to any ...

Just Me.

Just Me.
If you read my blog or if you know me, you know I have major body image issues.  I’ve never been confident with my body and never believed people when they would tell me I was pretty. I have never been comfortable with just me. Almost every day my husband would tell me that I ...

Vacation…

Vacation…
Tomorrow I will climb in a rental car with my daughter and her boyfriend, my son and his wife and we will drive to the ocean.  This will be the first vacation I’ve taken with the kids since they were little.  This will be the first vacation I have ever taken to the ocean since ...

Getting Older

Getting Older
This morning I woke up feeling 100 years old, every bone was creaking and hurt, for no real reason.  I have noticed that when you are almost 50, it’s harder just to jump right out of bed without something hurting.  As waddled my way to the French press to make some coffee to jump start ...

Abandoned Shoes

Abandoned Shoes
I had been driving by this abandoned garage all day delivering groceries when finally, on my last time around, I looked over at the parking lot and saw a pair of shoes.  Those abandoned shoes were just sitting there in the middle of the parking lot, all alone. I was so drawn to those silly ...

Put Down Your Phone.

Put Down Your Phone.
I had gotten to the airport too early for my flight, and as I was sitting at my gate with my coffee in my hand, I realized I was too tired to open my laptop or even look at my phone.  This got me thinking; I wondered how many things we miss while we are ...

Comparison is the thief of all happiness

Comparison is the thief of all happiness
  My morning ritual is pretty much the same when I’m home, the only thing that will vary is whether or not the bed gets made.  I wake up, brush my teeth, wash my face, get dressed, and make coffee.  Once the coffee is finished, depending on the weather, I will either sit on the ...

I Write Because

I Write Because
I write because sometimes I have things to say, and I can’t get someone to sit and listen to me spew 700 words at their face. They know I will barely stop to breathe, let alone let them get a word in edgewise.  Usually, if I get interrupted I lose my train of thought, and ...

304 Days Since I’ve Had A Paying Job

304 Days Since I’ve Had A Paying Job
It has been just about 304 days since I watched the last Marvel Experience dome get packed into a truck, packed our little Fiat up for the last time (or so I thought) and my husband and I drove back to Nashville.  I was grateful to be off my feet because this final run of ...

If We Were Having Coffee.

If We Were Having Coffee.
If we were having Coffee. If we were having coffee, we would meet up at my favorite place, order our coffees and sit down at one of the long community tables.  I would look into your eyes, take a deep breath and hold back the tears.  You’d say, “talk to me” because you are my ...