Comfortable… It’s A Good Thing.

Comfortable… It’s A Good Thing.
Five days into my month off has made me realize that’s all I need to be rested.  With the tour “retooling” itself, our next stop is unclear at the moment, and I am here, on my couch, asking the question “now what?”.  Seems like I should get that question tattooed on my arm.  However, this ...

166 Days…

13. February 2015 Gina DeNicola 0
166 Days…
There are more days than not lately that I am feeling happy, lucky and loved. I wish I could go back in time to September 1, 2014, and tell that Gina not to worry. In 166 days, you will be sitting by a beautiful pool in Southern California reading a book and am happy. I’m ...

One Word…

12. February 2015 Gina DeNicola 0
One Word…
While I was watching morning tv, there was a commercial for mental illness and it asked an interesting question. If you had to describe yourself in one word what would it be? Now while this post isn’t about mental illness, it got me thinking about what word I would use to describe myself. As I ...

Who You Are As A Woman Matters…

05. February 2015 Gina DeNicola 0
Who You Are As  A Woman Matters…
Who you are as a woman matters, especially to your daughters. I’m not sure how I raised a strong, smart, passionate, feminist for a daughter, but I did. She’s more intelligent than I am on any given day, and I often find myself having conversations with her that are over my head. One of those ...

Shouting In A Library

Shouting In A Library
“Is she a librarian?  I SAID is she a librarian?  You could have pointed me in that direction, you saw me standing in this long line”.  That is what I heard when I entered the downtown Dallas Library. It was so distracting; I almost missed the glorious smell that hits you in the face upon ...

She Said Yes!

She Said Yes!
She said yes and just like that, Sweet Baby Raymond became a man. When you have kids, no one gives you an instruction manual. So, as a parent, you are fundamentally unprepared for any significant milestones in that sweet baby’s life. You have no idea what to do with that baby the second you walk ...

You Are Beautiful – A letter to my mother.

You Are Beautiful – A letter to my mother.
You are beautiful inside and most certainly outside. Please stop talking about things you want to change about yourself. Every wrinkle on your face is from a precious memory. When you look at yourself in the mirror, and you see your mother, that’s an honor. Your mom was the sweetest, kindest, loving woman I knew. ...

Caught Between Two Worlds

26. December 2014 Gina DeNicola 0
Caught Between Two Worlds
As I laid in bed Christmas night, after the kids went back to their apartment, after the kitchen was cleaned and after setting my alarm for 4:30 am, I realized I feel stuck between two worlds. My kid’s world and my world. It’s weird navigating these two worlds. I was used to having little kids ...

Day 1

16. December 2014 Gina DeNicola 0
Day 1
Today is the first actual paid day of work for me. A lot of you are a little confused as to what it is I’m doing, and honestly so am I, but let’s see if I can clear things up a bit. Rob is the Tour Manager for The Marvel Experience and I will be ...

Homesick

09. December 2014 Gina DeNicola 4
Homesick
This morning I woke up homesick. But I was confused because I couldn’t imagine being homesick for Nashville. I must miss my sweet, sweet children. But then I thought I miss my friends, I actually made friends in Nashville, and I missed them, I miss the familiarity of my little city. I miss watching the ...

Sitting Here With Nothing On My Mind

04. December 2014 Gina DeNicola 3
Sitting Here With Nothing On My Mind
As I sit in the airport waiting on my future to arrive in the form of a big plane, it dawns on me that I have nothing on my mind. No thoughts, no concerns, no comments about hipsters, nothing. My head is the emptiest it has ever been in a long time. I’m good with ...

Be Nice To Each Other, Every Day

25. November 2014 Gina DeNicola 2
Be Nice To Each Other, Every Day
I’m not a logical thinker; I’m an emotional thinker. But I often try to find the logic in things. This morning I woke up, like most of the World, to the disaster that is Ferguson, MO. After a one-sided debated with an unsuspecting, still half asleep husband on minorities, slavery and the American Indians (all ...

Cocooning Yourself Into Oblivion

20. November 2014 Gina DeNicola 2
Cocooning Yourself Into Oblivion
I’ve noticed that I count days – 81 days since I closed the bakery; 17 days since I stopped bartending; 9 days since my last blog post and three days since I left the apartment. In the last almost three weeks, I’ve read four books. While that may sound envious, it’s not good, it’s not ...

How Do We Touch People’s Lives

11. November 2014 Gina DeNicola 1
How Do We Touch People’s Lives
If you know me well, you know I am intrigued by cemeteries. I will always, almost subconsciously, comment on one when we drive by it and will almost always, beg a family member to walk around one when I find one interesting. Since we moved downtown I have been asking family members, even those who ...

Less Really Is More

Less Really Is More
The culmination of weeks of job hunting has boiled down to two specific jobs. Job one is a definite and job two is 95% a sure thing. Job one leaves next Tuesday, and job two would leave in two weeks. There are so many variables with both jobs when it comes to our personal effects, ...

Psychiatric Wards, Uncertainties & Naps

Psychiatric Wards, Uncertainties & Naps
I know I’m supposed to have my shit together by now, after all it’s been 44 days since I closed the bakery. However, yesterday, as I laid in the fetal position on my bathroom rug, crying uncontrollably, I thought to myself, I should be over this, I should be happy, I should be composed. Yesterday, ...

Failed Expectations, Good Or Bad?

Failed Expectations, Good Or Bad?
I know I was supposed to be impressed, and I guess I was, but there was no blood in this moon.  It was a typical lunar eclipse or at least it looked like that to my tired untrained eyes, with an equally tired dog wondering why we were up before she wanted to be up. ...

Fear, Change And Tending Bar

29. September 2014 Gina DeNicola 0
Fear, Change And Tending Bar
No one likes change, not even those strange people who will shout it from the mountaintops in their quest to convince the rest of us that they adore change. (I had someone use that word, ADORE). I adore a lot of things and change is most certainly NOT one of them. Deep down I believe ...

Baking, Tours And Love

17. September 2014 Gina DeNicola 3
Baking, Tours And Love
I was a single mom for a good part of my kids childhood. I don’t remember a lot of their childhood.  It was a long time ago, 23 years ago, and because I was a single mom, working two jobs to make sure we had food on the table. But the one thing I do ...

“What Would Julia Do?”

10. September 2014 Gina DeNicola 0
“What Would Julia Do?”
My aunt asked me that question yesterday. “The question really is, what would Julia do?”. What would she do I wondered? She wouldn’t be in this situation to start, but if she were, she would make the most of it I suppose. From all that I’ve read of her she was a carefree, devil may ...

Breakfast, Jobs, Lemons & Sundays

07. September 2014 Gina DeNicola 0
Breakfast, Jobs, Lemons & Sundays
I had all the right intentions in the world on Saturday.  We were going to go out to breakfast, something we haven’t done in over 14 months, and then walk to the Dragon Races downtown.  I woke up with great intentions and a great mood, the day, however, end the polar opposite.  While we were ...